17th September 2017

It's been a while

... ...

Can't believe it's 2017

2 years after my last post in Blogger

It's really a long long time

Things happened

Shit happened too

The world changed

People changed too

So do I

想想起来

发现很久没有跟自己聊天了

很久没有好好跟自己

。。。。。。。。。

突然

跟自己说话觉得有点尴尬起来😅

（一瞬间发现Blogger可以放表情了😍😍)

真的发现

大家变了好多

当然

我也不例外

（发现英文我也写过了😅）

可能自己已经没有好好坐下来

自己静一静了

是太忙了嘛？

还是

故意找借口不要面对自己？

突然

觉得很对不起小时候的我

因为

没有好好利用想象力去探险了

小时候

当自己一个人时

会想象一系列的英雄探险故事

面对各种危机

战胜不同的敌人

个个招式都使出来

次次的突破自己的极限

回想起来

真的是很爽的说😋

现在呢

就有事没事玩手游

（手游=手机游戏）

其实

这样一看一想起来

应该说

尽管是小时候的自己

或是现在的自己

其实没有差很多

简单来说

当自己可以一个人时

就会想尽办法

逃离现实生活吧

现实生活

真的

很残酷

很冷血

很讨人厌

压力一大堆

烦东烦西

没人可惜

可能我应付得来

所以外表看不出

只是

一旦有了自己的时间

就会不停地

玩手游

看看戏

听听音乐

唱唱歌

跟外界断联一下

（有“断联”这配词吗？☹️）

发现我

长越大越安静

感觉越像我爸爸

可以一天不用说话

不用跟别人聊天

或许

我还比他更厉害

俗话说得好

青出于蓝而胜于蓝

我觉得

只要可以不出门的一天

我就尽量不要跟任何人

接触与沟通

“请问你是宅男吗？”

如果有人这样问我

我会很骄傲的回答说

“我是啊，而且我是帅气时髦宅男😘”

回到此刻心情

此刻我会回来这里的原因是

很多事情

很多心里话

很多愤怒的东西

很多想抱怨的人事物

我都藏在心里很久了

一段时间真的会喘不过气来

实在是辛苦😔

不是我没有朋友

不是我没有家人

也不是我不相信任何人

只是

我不善于表达内心的自己吧

此刻发现

很多眼睛在看着我

也许这样

我得更小心说话

更小心的看人

“人应该要活出精彩，不要管他人的bla bla bla。。”

这些废话连篇的，

不能用在此刻的我

原因一？

亲人

原因二？

朋友

原因三？

国家

“这些原因，重要吗？”

重要啊

如果不重要，那我列出来干嘛呢？

好啦

突然忘记要写什么了

先告一段落

拜

勇辉至上

2015 第一个post

大家好啊！！！

超级久的说~

很久没有在这里写了。

就趁这个时间写一写吧~~

不知不觉已经来到2015 的第二个月了~

离最后一个文章多久了我也不知道~

很多时候，

明明就很想写东西，

每次都是懒得要命~

来回顾回顾一下，

这个永辉过了怎样的日子啦~

进了大学以后，

感觉时间过得好快好快。

大家纷纷都老了很多。

我呢？

也是有长大了一点点。

因为每天都发生很多事情，

也学习了很多人生道理。

进入大学后，

认识了很多朋友，

有些过后变很熟，

有些过后变陌生。

吵架打闹，

读书赶功课，

跳舞唱歌，

喝茶看电影，

见老师见学长学弟妹，

睡觉煮饭，

做工办活动，

跑步游泳，

打保龄球打羽球，

去gym玩神魔，

拍照自拍，

旅行去海边。

还有很多很多。

你说说看，

是不是很充实的大学生活呀~

眼睛闭一下开一下，

已经进入最后一个学期了。

说实话，感觉这大学时期很像miss到很多东西，

感觉错过了什么似的。

想呀想呀，

还是想不通~

不过开心还是最重要。

可是想到最后一个学期就很伤心很沮丧。

想到大家在大学的最后一天，

我都会流眼泪。

真的很不舍那些帮我的~

因为我知道，

大学毕业后，

大家就会个忙个的~

也许再也不会再见了~

同时，

也发现了，

我也忽略了一些事。

很想弥补的，

不过都不知如何是好。

现在下着雨，

让我很疲倦，

很忧郁，

现在就想立刻掏空脑袋，

轻松一下身心。

就这样，

二月一日的开始，

加油！！

OMG day

Today is really an OMG day

Want to deny

But have to accept

The Fact that

"there're people who likes you and people who don't likes you"

Saddest thing about the fact was

You knew it at the same time

Which makes me so miserable now

What should I do?

Should I reveal it?

I don't like it

But it just so depressing to me

Happy Friendship Day!!

Happy Belated Friendship Day!!
It's belated because in this year,
Friendship Day is held on 4th August 2013.
And the day I'm writing my blog now,
Is 5th August 2013.

Anyway,
Here's the big deal of the day.
A present for Friendship Day.
What present?

A mash-up song consists of 3 songs.
Count On Me,
Stand By Me
Umbrella.

Not only that, 
I perform with an ukulele.
Thanks to Joshua.

Managed to perform it after 12 days of practise.
Practically less than that,
Because I don't practise it all the time.
It only took me around 15-20 minutes,
To strum and fret the ukulele,
And to sing along.

For me,
Although my vocal still need A LOT of improvements,
But I'm still happy with the result.
It was a BIG achievement in my life.
Play a ukulele and sing along,
It was some part of my dreams somehow.
Wasn't achieving your dream make you happy?
That's what I'm thinking now.
And probably a surprise present for my besties.
Hoping they enjoy it.

Don't bother about the vocal,
Just enjoy the song.
It's quite meaningful to me,
But I don't know how about others.
I just want to say that 
I'm very proud to have these friends,
I'm very happy to have them by my side.

Anyway,
I'm done for today.
Happy Friendship Day!!!

Happy Friendship Day!!!

Happy Belated Friendship Day!!
It's belated because in this year,
Friendship Day is held on 4th August 2013.

And the day I'm writing my blog now,
Is 5th August 2013.

Anyway,

HELLO AUGUST!!

It's been a while since my last post on here.
Totally forgot what I posted in the last post.

However,
I'm back again.

Back to blogging.
But I don't know what to blog.

Let's start with my life throughout this year.

So far, everything runs quite smooth.
Good thing, bad thing.
Good news, bad news.
Good fortune, bad triumph.
Problems there, solutions here.


Quite enjoyed the moment actually
When you try to think back,
It's something that can be an experience,
A memory,
A topic to talk about when you are getting older.

Yes!!
I'm old now.
Emerging adults stage.
Quarter life crisis happening to me.
Start to change yourself to become a better person.

21 years old.
Good memories when my friends celebrated with me.
3 days of celebration party.
Totally crazy.
But yet, I still love them as my besties, not breasts.

Maybe it will be my best memories ever of the year.
Maybe it won't also.
Because it's only August.
4 months left to celebrate 2014.
To say goodbye to 2013.
I'm very sure that I'll have good memories for the next 4 months as well.

Is it long enough for my post today?
I don't think so.
So let me continue.

Throughout my First Year Second Semester of my university life,
Shits happened a lot.
Being sabotaged,
Being annoyed,
Being bad to myself.

However,
I would appreciate that experience.
For being "pretending to be nice and caring",
For being "overly-concerned"
For being "follower"
For being "too attached"

Don't know about it,
But I'll try to ignore that.
Who the fuck to care about that?

Yeah, that fucker somehow is myself.
Not to care, but have to care about it.
Because it was coming out from one of my besties.

But everything's fine for me now.
I'm easy to forgive people.
Because I trust people easily.

Somehow, sometimes I wonder,
Why it is so hard for some people to trust others?
Why you have to close your heart to tightly?
I even asked myself.
I would answer,
"I would not trust people because they are strangers to me"
But is that everyone thinking of?
I don't know.
But WHO CARES?
I won't care except to those who are important to me, like my besties on this Earth.

Anyway,
There're lots of good things too.
Being Wakil Sains Kognitif a.k.a. Students' Representative for Cognitive Science.
Being involved in many activities,
Like drama, choir, dance, performances.
Being an organiser for fund-raising concert, 
Which was quite a successful event for me.
Too much until I can't think of others.
Overall, i think my university life for this semester was fun and colourful
Not many complaints about it.
But at least it wasn't as dull as those nerds right?

=D

what a day to emo

sometimes

i would just shut up

dont wan to care anything else