July, finally you came.. 02/07/2012

This is the first post where I'm blogging using a smartphone... Kinda hard to find an application for this Windows Phone.. But finally found this, but you can't view your own previous posts and even your following friends.. It won't cause any troubles for me because I just want to write a blog here... Anyway, this month would be a tough month for me. A month where I decides my future. Sounds so serious, but it's a funny matter. -THE END-

A Very Frustrating 26th May 2012

To Lim:

Life matter again.

How long will I suffer this thing?

It just so frustrating.

Make me tensed some more.

I can't hold that pressure for too long.

My brain will going to be burst if I keep on thinking of it.

It's about my life.

My future life.

My family's life.

My family's future life.

My lifestyle.

My time.

My everything.

FOR MY WHOLE LIFE.

I have to make the decision as fast as possible.

So I wouldn't spend my time for doing nothing and get nothing.

So this is really pissed me off.

Towards myself.

For being not strict on my choices.

This is really not myself.

I can't blame it too.

Things changes from time to time.

So I have to adapt to the changes.

Until I forgot who am I.

I forgot how strong am I last time.

How brave am I last time.

To fight with my will.

Now,

I am.

Like a blind.

Like a deaf.

Lost myself again.

No will to fight.

No brave to face.

No spirit to fulfil. 

Choices are there.

But I'm no longer can choose one.

Like I used to be.

"Just take one and enjoy the moments"

No longer.

I can stay with the choice I chose longer.

Like I used to be.

"I'll show you that my choice is right"

Now.

I only can say.

"Anything as I can go through"

"You choose it for me."

"I'm flexible"

Well.

It's wasn't "me"

That I like before.

The one stand his points steadily.

The one surprised everyone by his thoughts.

The one that never ever wants to lose.

The one that change things,not the one being changed.

The one that is so naive person.

Now,

I just want to have a rest.

I just want to have a zero thoughts.

I just don't want my brain cells to work.

For some moments.

So I can wake up freshly.

Without thinking anything.

So that I can find myself again.

Or create my new self.

Maybe stronger.

Maybe tougher.

Maybe faster.

I hope things can be done quickly.

So I should rest more.

To gain back all power and will.
To make decision.

Please,

Be good to yourself.

Be yourself.

Love yourself.

Sincerely,

Leo

She's The One For The Moment "520"

To All who wonders and wanders:

On the end of May,

 Newcomers arrived with different expression.

I'm still the one, full with curiosity that kills the cats, 

Looking everything for fun.

Saw everyone, with different hair types.

But I remembered one the most: long with wavy and curly hair.

Didn't saw the face, only the figure line the back.

It was a very very someday of June, (somehow I forgot whether it's June or July)

Things suddenly went very funny,
Everyone is laughing at the name.
"Wong Fei Hong", "Kui Fei Long"

Hei Fei Long Hong etc etc.
But somehow we don't know who she is.
And I'm only remembered that there's a long curly and wavy hair girl.


"Could it be her?"
I asked.


"Yes, it's her, indeed."
He replied.


It was still nothing at that time,
until I saw her again,
where I was always been there,
for 7 years.


Finally, I saw her.
The funny name jokes,
The stories about her,
The long wavy and curly hair girl.
"It's her."


Well, she's just a simple girl,
simple as having a simple life,
simple as on her appearance,
simple as a normal girl that passing by.


But the weird things happened,
I'm still remember her,
I saw something different from her.
She's normal for everyone but it just different for me.
Kept thinking here and there.
But I just ignore it.


Days to days,
Weeks to weeks,
We still the same,
having the same jokes,
having our life fun and chilled.
However,
I felt something different about me towards her.
Definitely, 
She Is Something To Me.


Since that moment,
She gets into my life.
I kept thinking of her，
For no reason.


One day at the end of July,
I've found her through a social networking website.
I can't believe it, but I was so happy.
So, I added her as friend, without thinking any circumstances.
It's not a fault right?
And yes,
She approved me to be her friend.
Making me so happy again.


It was a midnight Saturday,
but she's there.
So I'm making my first step to chat with her.
I admit that I am not a talkative when chatting with unknown people.
So I was so scared and worried,
that our conversation ended fast and with awkward moments.
Yet, our conversation was just good to me,
I'm satisfied with it,
since it lasted longer than I thought.


Again, I'm very happy and shared my "happiness" to my brothers,
"Happiness" where I put a new special person in my heart,
"Happiness" where I appreciated and saved another moments in my memory,
"Happiness" where I was never felt it for a long time since few years back.


Since then, 
I became her friend,
Chatting with her when we're free.
Teaching each other on life,
Getting better with each other.


Everything she done to me,
Everything she said to me,
Every moments we have,
Buried deep within my heart.
Making me "syok" myself, 
whenever,
wherever.
It still fun,
It still warming, 
It still meaningful,
It still exciting.
Indeed,
It's one-sided love.


Well, that's what I want to share today, since it's 520 day.
Happy Day Earth! =D

Life at 12/5/2012

Annyeong Ladies and Gentlemen~

It has been a long time since my previous update.  

I think it's about 2 or 3 posts for 2012.

Kinda lazy, but what can do?

When I want to blog, something is blocking my way.

When I don't want to blog, nothing crossed my mind.

So, forgive me if you cant see any updates from me.

And yeah, I'm TOO full of P & C (Privacy and Confidentiality)

YES,INDEED.  I'M MAXIMISED WITH P & C!

Well, that's pros and cons behind-the-story.

But the cons dominate more.

But I can't do anything.

It became parts of my life already.

Everything, I mean, things that happened in my life.

I'll just stay quiet,.

Not saying out, but swallow and digest it within my heart.

This is what I'm doing for the 20 years.

Sad isn't it?

Nah~~

Sad what?

Everyone is doing the same.

But I admit it that I keep too much for myself.

I don't know why, but... but... but... 

I just don't know why.

Maybe I have psychological disorder.

Yes, maybe I have psychological disorder due to bad memories I guess?

Hmmm~~ I can't even remember of any bad memories.

Too bad I guess until can't remember.

Well, anyway,

I'm sorry if you guys can't know me well.

Because I never know myself well too.

SO it's a very very pathetic me.

I'm just so emo this recently.

Don't know why, but something is there keep on flying here and there.

Makes me so struggle to overcome it in a day.

It's about my life for the next few months, few years or even my whole life.

I really hate it when it comes to decision on my life.

Maybe I'm just too creative till everyone expect to get what they hope from me.

Come on guys, surprise me.

Surprise how special am I.

Surprise how good am I.

Surprise how excellent am I.

Show me the proves.

Do tell me with proof.

Because I don't know how am I went through my life.

I don't think I'm good as you guys see or said.

Maybe I didn't see it by my own.

But I always marked myself as a F grade human.

Not much special about me.

But why people look me as different as what I thought on myself?

Maybe I'm too strict on myself?

Maybe I'm too depressed on myself?

or maybe those compliments are all FAKE?

Well, I can't see myself without proof.

Talking and saying how good am I won't make sense for me to believe it.

Anyway, let's just off grid and sleep.

Shall we?

 Goodnight!

Love you all.

random post

ok

was trying some test there..

and i get some results about myself..

read it..see if it suits me or nt... =D

你是： 平衡的中道

你的分數

解析：別人認為你是一個新鮮的、有活力的、有魅力的、好玩的、講究實際的而永遠有趣的人；一個經常是群眾注意力的焦點，但是你是一個足夠平衡的人，不至於因此而昏了頭。他們也認為你親切、和藹、體貼、能諒解人；一個永遠會使人高興起來並會幫助別人的人。 你的性格，可說是<突進型>的。在人家慢吞吞繼續慢行的狀態之下，你已是三步併成兩步的前進。決斷快到令人稱讚，決定之後也很敏捷的開始行動。是一邊行動一邊想的性格，不是想了後才行動。如果決定了目標，自然就開始動身行動了。  頭腦轉動很決，手法優異，所以任何事都以別人的二、三倍速度來處理。因此看到悠然慢做的人，就會焦躁地性急火氣大。由於太過爭先，容易漏視細小微妙之處，而因貿然斷定以致失敗的似乎也不少。 其迅速的決斷力及行動力，在競爭的社會中也許大有作用。快快抓住機會，競爭勝利地站在首位，將具成為這種優秀戰士的可能性。 此型的人非常熱情，是個向目標專心前進的突飛猛進型。對自己的做法有信心，絕對不會怯懦，盡力奮鬥以達成目標。 你想盡量在受到限制的人生中生存下來，是健康且有精神活力的。具有一旦出生了，就要多看、多知的旺盛的意欲。向上心很強，也有勇氣，討厭維持現狀，追求更刺激的生存，向未知的領域挑戰，也是個多夢的冒險家。 B型白羊座 的人討厭曖昧的狀態，想將全部的東西露在光亮的陽光下來解決。善惡分明，正邪有別，很多是想走向正當路途之富有正義感的人。不會忠實順從他人，對戰時是堂堂正正由正面攻擊，甚至具有雪中送炭的寬大胸襟。 自我主張很強，因為太過追求明確有對什麼事都不客氣地說的癖性，其直言有時如同銳利的小刀，會刺到人心深處。絕對沒有惡意，只是說話老實而已，但這種老實相反的會招來禍患。 可是，其如割竹之般的老實，會令人有如雨後清晨般的爽快之印象。其不會記恨、依戀不捨的直爽氣質，以及明朗的性格，這種魅力無法不吸引住許多人的心。 【對你的忠告】 有太過相信自己的傾向。不只是正面進攻，若有由側面慎重考慮事情的態度，性情會更加深厚。 and lastly, 分析：您的性格類型是「ENFJ」( 教育家 )         溫情，有同情心，反應敏捷，有責任感。非常關注別人的情緒、需要和動機。善於發現他人的潛能，並希望能幫助他們實現。能夠成為個人或群體成長和進步的催化劑。忠誠，對讚美和批評都能做出積極地回應。友善、好 社交。在團體中能很好地幫助他人，並有鼓舞他人的領導能力。 ENFJ型的人熱愛人類，他們認為人的感情是最重要的。而且他們很自然地關心別人，以熱情的態度對待生命，感受與個人相關的所有事物。由於他們很理想化，按照自己的價值觀生活，因此ENFJ型的人對於他們所尊重和敬 佩的人、事業和機構非常忠誠。他們精力充沛、滿腔熱情、富有責任感、勤勤勤懇懇、鍥而不捨。 ENFJ型的人具有自我批評的自然傾向。然而，他們對他人的情感具有責任心，所以ENFJ型的人很少在公共場合批評人。他們 敏銳地意識到什麼是（或不是）合適的行為。他們彬彬有禮、富有魅力、討人喜歡、深諳社會。ENFJ型的人具有平和的性格與忍耐力，他們長於外交，擅長在自己的周圍激發幽默感。他們是天然的領導者，受人歡迎而有魅 力。他們常常得利於自己口頭表達的天份，願意成為出色的傳播工作者。 ENFJ型的人在自已對情況感受的基礎上做決定，而不是基於事實本身。他們對顯而易見的事物之外的可能性，以及這些可能性以怎樣的方式影響他人 感興趣。 ENFJ型的人天生具有條理性，他們喜歡一種有安排的世界，並且希望別人也是如此。即使其他人正在做決定，他們還是喜歡把問題解決了。 ENFJ型的人富有同情心和理解力，願意培養和支持他人。他們能很好地 理解別人，有責任感和關心他人。由於他們是理想主義者，因此他們通常能看到別人身上的優點。 您適合的領域有：培訓、諮詢、教育、新聞傳播、公共關係、文化藝術 您適合的職業有： 人力資源培訓主任 銷售經理 小企業經理 程序設計員 生態旅遊業專家 廣告客戶經理 公關專業人士 協調人 交流總裁 作家／記者 非營利機構總裁 雜誌編輯 電視製片人 市場專員 社會工作者 人力資源管理 職業指導顧問 心理咨詢工作者 大學教師（人文學科類） 教育學、心理學研究人員 撰稿人 節目主持人（新聞、採訪類） 公共關係專家 社會活動家 文藝工作者 平面設計師 畫家 音樂家 accurate or nt?? i'm not sure too...XD

10-12-2011

YEAH!!!!

IT'S 10TH DECEMBER!!!

3 more days...

before I free again...

from the exam...

kinda happy....

kinda sad...

because there is only one 2011...

anyway, Love Life!!

27.11.11

Kind of slow productive day today

it's way way to slow production

Chemistry Paper 1 is on Wednesday

But I'm still there

Looking for nothing

Anyway

I'm craving for some books today

But I don't know as if I can finish them

Because I'm not a book-fetish

Not a good reader too

But yeah

Will try to have one VERY THICK BOOK

and have some read on it

But now

READ BIOLOGY AND CHEMISTRY FIRST