Speechless Day

speechless...

let's be speechless...

then be an invisible human...

standing there without any bright colour...

only with black and white...

maybe grey as well...

mute all the sound and voice...

stop all the movement and vibration..

no one can see...

no one can hear...

Question of my life~

I have a lot of questions about life...

But no one gives me the answers...

I'm curious with this question this recently...(part of my questions)

What is the feeling of being treated as the most important Friend after Family and Lover?

Well, I don't think I'm a very important to my Friends,even my Besties and "Another Siblings"...

I'm not the 1st Friend to think of...

I'm not the 1st Friend to chat with...

I'm not the 1st Friend to seek help...

I'm not the 1st Friend to play with...

Anyway, I'm just Nobody to anyone...

So, I don't know what is That Feeling...

It was an very very Awkward moment...

When you treat them as the Most Important Friends...

But they treat you Differently...

Maybe they treat you in the same way...

But you don't know about it..

Because they don't tell you about it...

And they thought you know about it...

Wasn't it?

Maybe I'm born to be Nobody..

Maybe I should not put too much effort on it..

Maybe I'm Masked Rider Decade, always be Rider that passing by each World..

Butthurt and Jelly on those people...

Being the Most Important Friends to some people..

But yeah, one word "Useless" for butthurt and jelly..

Because everyone is different...

Because you're not him/her...

Because your name is not the same with him/her...

Because everyone has different stories...

But I'm just curious on it....

Hoping someone can answer me in his/her point of view...

10/11/2011 Thursday

so sad today...

going to leave the school...

although sometimes hate it a lot...

but I always don't give a fuck on it...

I only see the bright side of it...


Going to miss everything...

Friends, Best friends, Teachers...

Chairs, Desks....

Stupid timetable, organisation charts...

but yeah, everything..

I MEAN EVERYTHING...

will miss it badly for this few days...

Another Big Song Today~~

yes...i'm here again...
today i'm here just want to share my current mood....

Yes...this is what i felt this recently after i listened to this song..

Like it straight away...

Because it speaks for me..

anyway, readers, just listen and look through this song... 

(-^o^-)

Jay Park (Park Jae Beom) – Girlfriend Lyrics

Romanization

Neol bogiman haedo neukkimi hwakhwak gaseumi jjaritae gyesok neowana

Eodil nolleo ganeun ge sangsangdwae anijiman niga beolsseo nae yeochineuro chakgakdwae

Niga hanbeon useojumyeon gamdang andwae jangjeomeun manjeom danjeommajeo wanbyeokhae

Ni saenggak haneunge hukeusongcheoreom banbokdwae naui sarangui yeonghwa niga gamdokhae ayyy

Nae kkumsogeneun neoya neorang daehwa hallyeogo hangungmareul baeun geoya

Urineun unmyeong neon nahante orheun geoya nan oenson baksucheoreom neoneun namanui jjak

Na mideojullae bulleosseo na mideodo dwae nan gogijip geomnal ttae ansim sikyeojulge

Niga himdeureohago itgo motgyeondil ttae nan husidin ni masulcheoreom sangcheoreul eobsaejulge

Nae daehaeseo an joheun soril deullyeodo nal mideobaby

Saramdeureun nae maeumeul molla but your the onefor me

Na wollae ireochido anha yejeonen yeoja manhasseo

Jigeumbuteo neoman bolge baby your all I need

Just be my girls friend my girl friend my girl friend my girl

Be my girls friend my girl friend my girl friend my girl

Narang sagyeojullae neorang haengbokhallae

Just be my girls friend my girl friend my girl friend my girlfriend

Eodil gado yeojadeuri jjipjeokdae nan yejeone peulleiboi geurae injeonghae

Geokjeongma ttanjitarireobseo nimollae nan ojik neoya uri sarangui sidohae

Bogo sipeoseo nan jeongmal jukgenne neon gaegeumaeneun anijiman gyesok utgedwae

Neol bolttaemada hwanhage utneun nae moseubi nawa neoneun areumdaun mellodi like ladadada

Meolli nolleo gago sipeo uri chareul tago gaja mallo pyohyeonhal su eobseo gajang areumdaun yeoja

Gamgi giun eobtjiman jigeum yeolla ni sajinman bwado paencheoreom yeolgwanghae

Na wollae ireochido anha yejeonen yeoja manhasseo

Jigeumbuteo neoman bolge baby your all I need

Just be my girls friend my girl friend my girl friend my girl

Be my girls friend my girl friend my girl friend my girl

Narang sagyeojullae neorang haengbokhallae

Just be my girls friend my girl friend my girl friend my girlfriend

Amuri bwado your a cutie uri durineun jeongmal jareoullyeo

Naneun ojik neoppuniya

Naman jom mideobwa Ooh cheonnyeon sarado neo gateun yeoja

Dasin mot bolgeotgata

So please be my baby

Just be my girls friend my girl friend my girl friend my girl

Be my girls friend my girl friend my girl friend my girl

Narang sagyeojullae neorang haengbokhallae

Just be my girls friend my girl friend my girl friend my girlfriend

English Translation

Just by looking at you, the feelings come – it’s electrifying

I keep imagining you and me going somewhere together

You’re not but I keep mistaking you as my girlfriend

If you smile at me just once, I can’t handle it

Your good traits are 10 out of 10, even your flaws are perfect

Your thoughts repeat just like a hook from a song

You’re the director to my movie of love

In my dream, it’s you

I learned Korean in order to talk to you

We are meant to be – I’ve been infected with you

Just like my left hand claps, you are my only pair

I sang, will you believe me? Yes, you can believe me

I’m a meat restaurant, when you’re scared, I’ll order some assurance^

When you can’t take on the hardships,

Like Houdini’s magic, I will make your scars vanish

Even if you hear bad things about me, trust me baby

People don’t know how I feel but you’re the one for me

I’m not normally like this – I used to have a lot of girls before

But from now on, I will only look at you – baby you’re all I need

Just be my girlfriend, my girlfriend, my girlfriend, my girl

Be my girlfriend, my girlfriend, my girlfriend, my girl

Will you go out with me?

I want to be happy with you

Just be my girlfriend, my girlfriend, my girlfriend, my girlfriend

Wherever I go, girls hit on me

Yes, I admit, I used to be a playboy in the past

But don’t worry, I’m not going to secretly do something else

I only have you – let’s give our love a try

I miss you so much that I could die

You’re not a comedian but you keep making me laugh

Every time I see you, my brightly smiling face appears

You are a beautiful melody like ladadada

I want to travel far away with you – Let’s take the train and go

I can’t express this with words – you’re the most beautiful girl

I don’t have a cold but I have a fever

Just looking at your picture makes me swoon like a fan

I’m not normally like this – I used to have a lot of girls before

But from now on, I will only look at you – baby you’re all I need

Just be my girlfriend, my girlfriend, my girlfriend, my girl

Be my girlfriend, my girlfriend, my girlfriend, my girl

Will you go out with me?

I want to be happy with you

Just be my girlfriend, my girlfriend, my girlfriend, my girlfriend

No matter how much I look, you’re a cutie

We look really good together

I only have you

Please believe in me

Even if I live a thousand years, I will never see a girl like you

So please be my baby

Just be my girlfriend, my girlfriend, my girlfriend, my girl

Be my girlfriend, my girlfriend, my girlfriend, my girl

Will you go out with me?

I want to be happy with you

Just be my girlfriend, my girlfriend, my girlfriend, my girlfriend

Specially written for some people....

-THIS POST IS SPECIAL JUST FOR SELECTED 13 FRIENDS ONLY-

to: t-H-ose k-I-ndly c-A-n hia-O-

Have you found anything weird this recently?

Anything "gone and disappeared"?

Ever feel "Why?" after you found it?

Feel "sad", "disappointed","angry","happy" or "NOTHING"?

"NOT DEMOCRATIC for making this decision?"

yes, we all are not democratic..

why not?

"you guys want to have gathering at where?"

"any place", "随便", "just tell me where after you guys decide"

it happens among us, including me..

Next,

i found out this phenomena happened to me

MOST OF THE TIME

"[video] so funny...XD"

(no response)

"[song] i like this song..."

(no response)

"[words] from LeozLim"

(no response)

For those who thinks this way towards me:

-Read-

WHAT??

AM I RIDICULOUS TO YOU???

AM I TALK RUBBISH???

AM I SHARE SOMETHING NONSENSE AND USELESS???

AM I IDIOT SO NO NEED TO READ AND DO NOTHING???

ACT CHILDISH SO IGNORE ME??

FEEL DISGUSTED ON ME SO KEPT AWAY FROM ME??

TOO BOSSY AND GOSSIPING SO DOESN'T CARE??

DON'T TELL ME YOU NEVER ACT CHILDISH

DON'T TELL ME YOU NEVER SHARE SOMETHING NONSENSE

DON'T TELL ME YOU NEVER GOSSIPING

DON'T TELL ME YOU NEVER TALK RUBBISH

-End-

THANK YOU
For being my special friends

because i know you guys will never feel this to me...

I want to say something here,
I don't like to be ignored.
I don't like to be abandoned by someone I like.
I'm not sharing things with Internet.

It is a very scary things to me when no one is responds to me.
I don't know who likes my posts.
I don't know who really sees my posts.
I don't know who you guys feel.

I know you guys don't like to be abandoned and ignored as well.
That's why I created this group.

But when the group was ignored,
I felt the pain.
Because I created this.
It  feels like it was my fault.

When I was being ignored,
I felt like an useless person.
I'm no longer in this group.

"Am I just an organiser of event for this group?"
"Am I just a reporter in this group?"
"Am I just an informer for this group?"

"Why you guys seems doesn't care about me?"
"Why you guys are not worrying me?"
"Why you guys caring are each other but not me?"
"Am I always look having happy day everyday?"

I wonder many things everyday.

I'm not a ghost nor shadow.
I'm just a typical human being.

THANK YOU AGAIN
For those responded to me.

I appreciated your responses.

Besides,
The disbandment of this group,

It was my own idea
IT IS NOT RELATED TO ANYONE
AND
It is just TEMPORARY.


Don't be sad, don't be curious, don't be disappointed.
It's not I don't want to discuss with you all.
It's not I don't want to tell you all this decision.
It just that I don't want anyone of you quarrel each other to accept or decline this decision.

Plus,
I'm tired already.
I need to get rest.
It's not easy to keep a good relationship with you guys.
Because you guys are my best friends.
My special friends,
My another family members.
And I want to maintain the friendship.

I need to keep everyone of you stay cool and connecting.
To avoid more conflicts, more misunderstandings.
I don't know everything, but at least I know more.

It doesn't mean I want to stop everything between us.
NO
I DIDN'T MEANT IT AT ALL

I have stress and pressure, so do you guys.
I have many problems, so do you guys.
I don't want to burden you guys.
I don't want to make foolish things when I'm down.
And I don't want to hurt you guys,
as I easily hurt others when I'm stressed.

"It's not related to the disbandment.."
"Why don't you just ignored it? You don't have to disband it at all."
Still thought of that?
I can answer you.

Yes, I need to disband it for a while.
Because I don't see everyone so appreciate it.
Or you viewed it but do nothing after that?
Since you guys do nothing, then I just thought you guys didn't saw it...

Anyway, I don't know what to write now...
Just ask or argue or disagree me or anything you want to do..

I don't mind if you don't believe my words,
but I'll don't think our past few years' friendship is just a game.

Thanks for everything.
 (^-^)

From:
LL

3 months later~~

3 months later,
who am I?
someone that is very happy?
someone that is very sad?
someone that is very excited?

3 months later,
what am I going to do?
working?
learning?
sleeping?
hair-dying?
new haircut?
spamming?
night-watchman?

3 months later,
why am I doing all these?












BECAUSE IT'S THE LAST DAY OF STPM!!!!!

Awh Mai Gawd!!
 I'm so excited waiting for this day!!
but I have to struggle and sacrifice many things around me...
I have to say "Sorry" if you're in my list...

After 3 months,
"Alpha Q"~~

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