something is there waiting for me~~~~~
so excited....
so motivated....
IF THIS IS SUCCESSFUL, THEN I'LL BE MORE PREPARED!!!!
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Monday, July 4, 2011
7/4/2011
4th day of July,
a different day for me...
I feel, think, learn and respond differently...
I think I should confirm the decision...
no matter what happened...
Quote:
Life is not about searching for the things that could be found.
Its about letting the unexpected happen.
Finding things you never searched for....
credit to : QuotesNSmiles and Sern03 for sharing...
a different day for me...
I feel, think, learn and respond differently...
I think I should confirm the decision...
no matter what happened...
Quote:
Life is not about searching for the things that could be found.
Its about letting the unexpected happen.
Finding things you never searched for....
credit to : QuotesNSmiles and Sern03 for sharing...
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
FIRST DAY OF JUNE!!!!
Yeah, it's 1st of June!!!
"What does it means?"
it means a lot....
to me...
first thing:
Happy Children's Day!!!!!
i'm still consider myself as a child...
well, there's no Adult's Day in Malaysia...
anyway, i'm happy today!!! *wink wink*
second thing:
Happy Gawai Day!!!!
so weird when i write it in English...
-Again-
Selamat Hari Gawai!!!
~better~
well, i managed to meet up with my best friends today...
christine, bernadette, and vivien....
quite a long time since we bitched together last time...
so today,
we managed to laugh and talk together...
since everyone is fine, so i'm fine too..
anyway,
no picture or photo uploaded...
so,
good night everyone..
i'm going to watch “49 days”
[it's a Korean drama...well, i'm strongly recommend this drama...don't ask me why, JUST WATCH IT!!]
Monday, May 9, 2011
提早的低潮期～～
不知道，
这几天，
在烦恼什么。。
不知道，
什么时候，
自己变成,
这么落魄。。
不知道，
什么时候，
可以让我抛开，
那些烦恼，
那些多虑。。
不知道，
什么时候，
身边的事情，
紧紧地烙印在心里，
想忘也忘不了，
深深地影响，
接下来走的路。。
想了又想，
想了又想，
想了又想，
应该是时候，
放下手上，
紧握的，
某些人事物，
或者，
放下手上，
所有的一切。。
也许，
这是人生中，
重大的一步，
也许，
对你，
对我，
对他，
是一件好事，
也有可能是坏事。。
放掉？
还是，
握着？
没人晓得。。
只有时间，
能断定这一切。。
这几天，
在烦恼什么。。
不知道，
什么时候，
自己变成,
这么落魄。。
不知道，
什么时候，
可以让我抛开，
那些烦恼，
那些多虑。。
不知道，
什么时候，
身边的事情，
紧紧地烙印在心里，
想忘也忘不了，
深深地影响，
接下来走的路。。
想了又想，
想了又想，
想了又想，
应该是时候，
放下手上，
紧握的，
某些人事物，
或者，
放下手上，
所有的一切。。
也许，
这是人生中，
重大的一步，
也许，
对你，
对我，
对他，
是一件好事，
也有可能是坏事。。
放掉？
还是，
握着？
没人晓得。。
只有时间，
能断定这一切。。
Sunday, April 24, 2011
It's Gloomy Sunday~~
灰色星期天，
难道就是指的是～
今天吗？
今天，
小孩很灰～
很灰。。。
今天，
小孩很累～
很累。。。
不知道为何，
今天，
心灵，
外壳，
身心，
都很累～
很疲倦～
很疲倦。。。
整个人，
都没有精神，
似乎断了魂。。。
按键盘，
都没有力气，
似乎断了掌。。。
今天，
一夜之间，
快乐的，
悲伤的，
感动的，
无数的故事，
无数的想法，
无数的问题，
一直数不清，
浮现出来。。。
似乎，
临死之前，
生命的点点滴滴，
一点一滴地飘浮在脑海里～
生命的回忆，
一片一片地在脑海里重播。。。
灰色的小孩，
想着，
想了，
又想着，
又想了，
辉煌又灰暗的故事。。。
有很多很多的故事，
是小孩，
来不及消化，
来不及思考，
来不及伤心，
来不及开心，
来不及哭泣，
来不及欢笑，
来不及分享，
来不及诉苦～
导致小孩只要藏起来。。。
藏着藏着，
再也没有出来～
藏着藏着，
早已经习惯了。。。
永远很灰的小孩，
就像颜色笔，
灰色，
往往都夹在，
黑色与白色之间
永远，
都比其他颜色笔长，
看得较宽，
听得较细，
等得较久。。。
一个人，
孤独地，
慢慢地，
变短。。。
很少人，
会想用灰色～
很少人，
会想起灰色～
就算，
没有了灰色，
很少人会发现，
就算，
没有了灰色，
黑色与白色，
还能制造新的灰色。。。
知道自己很灰的小孩，
想尽办法让自己，
变成辉煌的灰色，
不过，
始终都是一个灰色，
很容易地，
被遗忘，
被错过，
被误解，
被忽略。。。
朋友啊，
请不要怪灰色小孩的自我，
不是他不要说，
只是他不知从哪开口。。。
朋友啊，
请不要怪灰色小孩的自私，
不是他不相信，
只是他不相信自己。。。
朋友啊，
请不要怪灰色小孩的自闭，
不是他不分享，
只是他跟自己过不去。。。
朋友啊，
请不要怪灰色小孩的自爱，
不是他不述说，
只是他需要时间放下身段。。。
朋友啊，
永远灰色的小孩，
不是想象中的坚强，
不是想象中的爱笑，
不是想象中的快乐，
不是想象中的活泼。。。
只是，
比较少露出软弱的一面，
比较少露出哭泣的一面，
比较少露出悲伤的一面，
比较少露出堕落的一面。。。
难道就是指的是～
今天吗？
今天，
小孩很灰～
很灰。。。
今天，
小孩很累～
很累。。。
不知道为何，
今天，
心灵，
外壳，
身心，
都很累～
很疲倦～
很疲倦。。。
整个人，
都没有精神，
似乎断了魂。。。
按键盘，
都没有力气，
似乎断了掌。。。
今天，
一夜之间，
想起了很多事情:
友情，亲情，爱情，人情～
被问起小孩的事时，
突然想了很多。。。
快乐的，
悲伤的，
感动的，
无数的故事，
无数的想法，
无数的问题，
一直数不清，
浮现出来。。。
似乎，
临死之前，
生命的点点滴滴，
一点一滴地飘浮在脑海里～
生命的回忆，
一片一片地在脑海里重播。。。
灰色的小孩，
想着，
想了，
又想着，
又想了，
辉煌又灰暗的故事。。。
有很多很多的故事，
是小孩，
来不及消化，
来不及思考，
来不及伤心，
来不及开心，
来不及哭泣，
来不及欢笑，
来不及分享，
来不及诉苦～
导致小孩只要藏起来。。。
藏着藏着，
再也没有出来～
藏着藏着，
早已经习惯了。。。
永远很灰的小孩，
就像颜色笔，
灰色，
往往都夹在，
黑色与白色之间
永远，
都比其他颜色笔长，
看得较宽，
听得较细，
等得较久。。。
一个人，
孤独地，
慢慢地，
变短。。。
很少人，
会想用灰色～
很少人，
会想起灰色～
就算，
没有了灰色，
很少人会发现，
就算，
没有了灰色，
黑色与白色，
还能制造新的灰色。。。
知道自己很灰的小孩，
想尽办法让自己，
变成辉煌的灰色，
不过，
始终都是一个灰色，
很容易地，
被遗忘，
被错过，
被误解，
被忽略。。。
朋友啊，
请不要怪灰色小孩的自我，
不是他不要说，
只是他不知从哪开口。。。
朋友啊，
请不要怪灰色小孩的自私，
不是他不相信，
只是他不相信自己。。。
朋友啊，
请不要怪灰色小孩的自闭，
不是他不分享，
只是他跟自己过不去。。。
朋友啊，
请不要怪灰色小孩的自爱，
不是他不述说，
只是他需要时间放下身段。。。
朋友啊，
永远灰色的小孩，
不是想象中的坚强，
不是想象中的爱笑，
不是想象中的快乐，
不是想象中的活泼。。。
只是，
比较少露出软弱的一面，
比较少露出哭泣的一面，
比较少露出悲伤的一面，
比较少露出堕落的一面。。。
Saturday, January 1, 2011
It's 2011!!!!!!!
hello readers....
and HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
I'm here to wish you all will have a very cheerful and good year in 2011...
I'm also wishing myself to be strong enough to face the challenges in this year...
well, today I'm here to share with you guys on what i did on last 28/12-30/12 2010...
on these days, I've attended a counseling course named "Mapping Youth Future" a.k.a.
"唤醒青少年并规划他们的未来" under Yongiway organized by 林氏公会...
only Lilin knew that I've attended this course because she and her mum suggested me to join..
in this 3 days, I've been busy for whole day and felt a large-scaled tiredness....
the reason is the course took 13 hours per day, which is from 8.00am to 9.00pm...
on the first day(28/12/2010), I've been taught on how to be adaptable to environment, fast and creative...
well, i think I'm quite good in performing these skills...nothing to be worry about..
we(11 members) have worked together as a family of Horse(according to Chinese Horoscope).....
it was a tough day for me to become a good leader because some of my member wasn't put 100% input during the activity...they doesn't open enough to work, discuss even talk...
i can't blame that because everyone needs their own time to adapt to the new and unfamiliar environment..
then, we have sang Happy Birthday song using our family's voices, so horse's voice was used by us to sing the song...the event is funny, because I'm thinking on how to "talk" as a horse...
then we were also danced according to the animal's special characteristic..
everything doesn't proceed as i planned and the performance was kind of 4/10 marks..
not even that,we have created our own cake according to our family's animal..
and together,we have created a cake of our mentor's face..
here, we played with the cake and team worked together in this task...quite a happy ending..XD
then, we have released our anger by scramble the yoga mat...
we(male member) have scrambled 2 towels until the towels torn up...
after that, we have learnt how to train our vocal and volume...
we are also did a meditation to release our anger...
lastly, we have learnt how to sing a song with different expressions..
and also practiced to sing "You Raise Me Up" by Westlife..
second day(29/12/2010), we still continued with Dr.Yong's lecture and group discussions..
then continued our song practicing activity..
after that, we have learnt how to release stress and relax our mind and body, by "Laughing and Vomit Hardly"
well, this is a part where i can't perform well,because you need to laugh hardly, then vomit...
i can laugh, but i can't vomit in front of many people, into a plastic bag with some transparency...
the next thing we did is another meditation to express the sadness part of us...
then, we are also exposed another way to release our anger by "Hit the Mattress"
it was a fun activity because you would be relaxed after you doing this...
and my both hands were injured by the mattress..
right after having lunch, we started to create our own 舞狮...
but in this case, we have create according to our family's animal...
and for my team, we have to create 舞马...
it was a difficult task for us because it is difficult to create the head of a horse..
besides, we are also need to create our own material to create melody and rhythm..
on 7.30pm, the "Animal Dance"competition was started...
on the competition, our group have won "The Best Drum Award"...
for the event, i have learnt some skills on 舞狮...
and i'm hoping that i can learn more in future...
on the third day(30/12/2010),which is the last day, we have a lots of lectures to be attend..
then, we have a "Imagine & Express" which we have to face to face on one of our member(one on one)..
with the help of hand-to-hand and songs, we are able to express everything in the deepest of our heart..
honestly,all of us were cried...
later, again, we all hold our hand,
and together,
in a comfortable environment and songs,
shares and expresses our feelings and stories..
then, Dr. Yong told us about his past stories...
after that, we are exposed another way to express our anger,
other than "Hit The Mattress",called "Get Up If You Can"..
in this activity, a person will lay on a mattress,
then about 6-7 people will hold that person so he/she cant get up...
thus, the person will used his/her energies to fight so he/she can get up..
it was a tiring and sore throat event for me, because it requires a lot of energies...
after the activity, we all gathered together for the last discussion...
and it will be our last practice for singing...
it was a sad part for me,because we all will going to separate and continues our own live in future..
after that, on 7.30pm, our graduation event was started...
we all have sang "Negaraku " and "You Raise Me Up" together...
it was very touching event there...
after all the coarse, I really learnt a lot of things..no matter from my team, even from Dr.Yong..
Sixth sense, thinking thought's killer, don't think, do only ONE time of revision...
even some of his thoughts are the same with mine, which that thoughts were not acceptable by most of the people...and i feel proud of that...XD
as a conclusion,
3 days were the most tiring days for me, because it took about 12 hours there...
3 days were the most successful days for me, because most of the activity i can fully participate,
and be a good leader...
3 days were the most failure days for me, because i can't fully socialize with others,
as I'm quite an "old man" at there and I'm from different school than others...
and i didn't really make a friend too, as i didn't take their Facebook account and handphone number...
even my own group, i don't have their Facebook account or handphone number and even i didn't take picture with them....and that's make me so down...
but luckily, I'm accidentally found some of them through Facebook....and that's make me feel lucky..
maybe it's a new year gift for me...
Anyways, Happy New Year to my family, friends and people around me...XD
and HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
I'm here to wish you all will have a very cheerful and good year in 2011...
I'm also wishing myself to be strong enough to face the challenges in this year...
well, today I'm here to share with you guys on what i did on last 28/12-30/12 2010...
on these days, I've attended a counseling course named "Mapping Youth Future" a.k.a.
"唤醒青少年并规划他们的未来" under Yongiway organized by 林氏公会...
only Lilin knew that I've attended this course because she and her mum suggested me to join..
in this 3 days, I've been busy for whole day and felt a large-scaled tiredness....
the reason is the course took 13 hours per day, which is from 8.00am to 9.00pm...
on the first day(28/12/2010), I've been taught on how to be adaptable to environment, fast and creative...
well, i think I'm quite good in performing these skills...nothing to be worry about..
we(11 members) have worked together as a family of Horse(according to Chinese Horoscope).....
it was a tough day for me to become a good leader because some of my member wasn't put 100% input during the activity...they doesn't open enough to work, discuss even talk...
i can't blame that because everyone needs their own time to adapt to the new and unfamiliar environment..
then, we have sang Happy Birthday song using our family's voices, so horse's voice was used by us to sing the song...the event is funny, because I'm thinking on how to "talk" as a horse...
then we were also danced according to the animal's special characteristic..
everything doesn't proceed as i planned and the performance was kind of 4/10 marks..
not even that,we have created our own cake according to our family's animal..
and together,we have created a cake of our mentor's face..
here, we played with the cake and team worked together in this task...quite a happy ending..XD
then, we have released our anger by scramble the yoga mat...
we(male member) have scrambled 2 towels until the towels torn up...
after that, we have learnt how to train our vocal and volume...
we are also did a meditation to release our anger...
lastly, we have learnt how to sing a song with different expressions..
and also practiced to sing "You Raise Me Up" by Westlife..
second day(29/12/2010), we still continued with Dr.Yong's lecture and group discussions..
then continued our song practicing activity..
after that, we have learnt how to release stress and relax our mind and body, by "Laughing and Vomit Hardly"
well, this is a part where i can't perform well,because you need to laugh hardly, then vomit...
i can laugh, but i can't vomit in front of many people, into a plastic bag with some transparency...
the next thing we did is another meditation to express the sadness part of us...
then, we are also exposed another way to release our anger by "Hit the Mattress"
it was a fun activity because you would be relaxed after you doing this...
and my both hands were injured by the mattress..
right after having lunch, we started to create our own 舞狮...
but in this case, we have create according to our family's animal...
and for my team, we have to create 舞马...
it was a difficult task for us because it is difficult to create the head of a horse..
besides, we are also need to create our own material to create melody and rhythm..
on 7.30pm, the "Animal Dance"competition was started...
on the competition, our group have won "The Best Drum Award"...
for the event, i have learnt some skills on 舞狮...
and i'm hoping that i can learn more in future...
on the third day(30/12/2010),which is the last day, we have a lots of lectures to be attend..
then, we have a "Imagine & Express" which we have to face to face on one of our member(one on one)..
with the help of hand-to-hand and songs, we are able to express everything in the deepest of our heart..
honestly,all of us were cried...
later, again, we all hold our hand,
and together,
in a comfortable environment and songs,
shares and expresses our feelings and stories..
then, Dr. Yong told us about his past stories...
after that, we are exposed another way to express our anger,
other than "Hit The Mattress",called "Get Up If You Can"..
in this activity, a person will lay on a mattress,
then about 6-7 people will hold that person so he/she cant get up...
thus, the person will used his/her energies to fight so he/she can get up..
it was a tiring and sore throat event for me, because it requires a lot of energies...
after the activity, we all gathered together for the last discussion...
and it will be our last practice for singing...
it was a sad part for me,because we all will going to separate and continues our own live in future..
after that, on 7.30pm, our graduation event was started...
we all have sang "Negaraku " and "You Raise Me Up" together...
it was very touching event there...
after all the coarse, I really learnt a lot of things..no matter from my team, even from Dr.Yong..
Sixth sense, thinking thought's killer, don't think, do only ONE time of revision...
even some of his thoughts are the same with mine, which that thoughts were not acceptable by most of the people...and i feel proud of that...XD
as a conclusion,
3 days were the most tiring days for me, because it took about 12 hours there...
3 days were the most successful days for me, because most of the activity i can fully participate,
and be a good leader...
3 days were the most failure days for me, because i can't fully socialize with others,
as I'm quite an "old man" at there and I'm from different school than others...
and i didn't really make a friend too, as i didn't take their Facebook account and handphone number...
even my own group, i don't have their Facebook account or handphone number and even i didn't take picture with them....and that's make me so down...
but luckily, I'm accidentally found some of them through Facebook....and that's make me feel lucky..
maybe it's a new year gift for me...
Anyways, Happy New Year to my family, friends and people around me...XD
Friday, December 3, 2010
今天呢～～
今天是第一次我用华语来写博客。。。
惊喜吗？？ OS:一点也不惊喜耶～～XD
今天呢，真的是过得很一般，就跟文锦，江氏姐妹以及江妹男友一起去看了《童眼》 这部戏。。
这部戏，该怎么说呢？？
很刺激，不错看。。。
吓人的部分是有的，当然更吓人的就是江氏姐姐的尖叫声咯。。哈哈哈哈！！！
看完过后呢，就在那边做两个小时的拉子。。^^
P/S:刚刚去mall那里看到了我想买的名牌鞋子。。（不要说我很爱名牌爱现哦，人人都爱名牌啊，只不过这次是我第一次要买名牌鞋子，想要尝尝穿那类鞋的滋味。。XD）
鞋子是很好看，不过没有我要颜色。。看来要换下颜色口味了。。>.<
当然呢，也顺便提一下，明天呢（4/12/2010），江氏姐妹跟文锦将会离开民都鲁各自继续深造。。。
也没有舍不得的心情啦，今年发生在我身上的分分离离都已经够多了，所以也已经习惯了。。。而且，他们有不是去到国外啊，没什么好舍不得的。。。
当然啦，也祝福一下人家啦。。
希望他们好好读书，好好照顾身体，安全。。Hwaiting!!!!
不过啊，还有另外的重点。。
今天呢，也是为了要发泄发泄心里一些困惑，压力等等那类的就是了。。
自从从国民服务回来之后至今，发生了很多很多很多很多的事情。。
不管是好的，或者是不好的。。。
不好的回忆呢，一个个都已经盖过好的回忆了，让我变成“灰色小孩”。。。
我也不想一件一件的事情说出来，因为我想忘记它们。。
跟家人的，
跟朋友的，
跟周围的人
以及
跟自己的事情。。
虽然，这些事情，
有时会让我很快乐，
很幸福，
但也会让我很沉重，
让我很累，
让我想放弃一切。。
经常嘻嘻哈哈，
hiao来hiao去，
看起来健壮阳光，
即坚强的我，
虽然很不喜欢在大家面前露出，
悲观的一面，
变得很脆弱，
很没用的样子。。
但我很爱面子，
不喜欢把丑的一面给大家看，
我只想表现出乐观的一面，
来掩饰我的丑的一面，
因为我不想周遭的人，
都因为我的悲观，
而也影响了他们，
因为我也是很容易受心情影响的人，
所以，
只要我快乐，
只要我开心，
只要我幸福，
周遭的大家也会开心，快乐，幸福，
这样，
我才不会变成大家的负担。。
伪装，很辛苦吗？
我会说，
不会，一点也不。。
因为，当大家在享福时，
我也乐在其中。。
当然，
一直都很开朗又坚强的我，
感觉能够克服一切的我，
感觉没有悲伤的一面，
在悲观的情况下，
也希望有人关心，
也渴望有人安慰。。
但，
我就是hiao，
很爱面子的小孩。。
当我自己开始变成悲观时，
那时就会想说，
“我很累，
我不行了，
我好想大哭一场”
哭，
当然是忍不住一切时的动作，
并不是解决的方法，
也不想被列为“爱哭鬼”。。
在这半年里的事情所憋的事情，
仅仅地困在心里，
频频地发生，
让我无法把它们给忘记，
让我很难过，
很想放弃一切，
不想再继续下去。。
我常常跟朋友说，
现在，
我自己都没有做出来。。
所以必须得在这里释放出来。。
为什么不会跟朋友或家人诉苦？
也许活在现在的残酷又现实世界，
偶尔会让我觉得，
我应该相信自己多过于别人，
偶尔会让我觉得，
我不应该相信“他们”。。
“他们”指的是谁？
我也不知道。。
可能是家人，
也许是朋友，
或许是自己。。
我只知道，
大家快乐，
大家幸福，
大家享福，
我就很好了。。。
当然，
你们一定会，
很讶异，
很惊喜，
很奇怪，
我今天写的博客。。
当然，
你们也会说：
“不要悲观啦。。”
“为什么你会这样写？”
“最近发生什么事情吗？”
我只想说，
最近真的很累，
心里不平衡，
可能压力太大，
只是想释放压力，
不用太担心我。。
悲观完毕！！！
好啦，我现在不想再说什么了。。
方正，心情有好转一些些。。
也不想悲观太久，
因为我很爱面子，很hiao。。。
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！！！^^
最后，请为我说声“HWAITING”吧～～
晚安咯，各位。。
惊喜吗？？ OS:一点也不惊喜耶～～XD
今天呢，真的是过得很一般，就跟文锦，江氏姐妹以及江妹男友一起去看了《童眼》 这部戏。。
这部戏，该怎么说呢？？
很刺激，不错看。。。
吓人的部分是有的，当然更吓人的就是江氏姐姐的尖叫声咯。。哈哈哈哈！！！
看完过后呢，就在那边做两个小时的拉子。。^^
P/S:刚刚去mall那里看到了我想买的名牌鞋子。。（不要说我很爱名牌爱现哦，人人都爱名牌啊，只不过这次是我第一次要买名牌鞋子，想要尝尝穿那类鞋的滋味。。XD）
鞋子是很好看，不过没有我要颜色。。看来要换下颜色口味了。。>.<
当然呢，也顺便提一下，明天呢（4/12/2010），江氏姐妹跟文锦将会离开民都鲁各自继续深造。。。
也没有舍不得的心情啦，今年发生在我身上的分分离离都已经够多了，所以也已经习惯了。。。而且，他们有不是去到国外啊，没什么好舍不得的。。。
当然啦，也祝福一下人家啦。。
希望他们好好读书，好好照顾身体，安全。。Hwaiting!!!!
不过啊，还有另外的重点。。
今天呢，也是为了要发泄发泄心里一些困惑，压力等等那类的就是了。。
第一次出现的悲观：
自从从国民服务回来之后至今，发生了很多很多很多很多的事情。。
不管是好的，或者是不好的。。。
不好的回忆呢，一个个都已经盖过好的回忆了，让我变成“灰色小孩”。。。
我也不想一件一件的事情说出来，因为我想忘记它们。。
跟家人的，
跟朋友的，
跟周围的人
以及
跟自己的事情。。
虽然，这些事情，
有时会让我很快乐，
很幸福，
但也会让我很沉重，
让我很累，
让我想放弃一切。。
经常嘻嘻哈哈，
hiao来hiao去，
看起来健壮阳光，
即坚强的我，
虽然很不喜欢在大家面前露出，
悲观的一面，
变得很脆弱，
很没用的样子。。
但我很爱面子，
不喜欢把丑的一面给大家看，
我只想表现出乐观的一面，
来掩饰我的丑的一面，
因为我不想周遭的人，
都因为我的悲观，
而也影响了他们，
因为我也是很容易受心情影响的人，
所以，
只要我快乐，
只要我开心，
只要我幸福，
周遭的大家也会开心，快乐，幸福，
这样，
我才不会变成大家的负担。。
伪装，很辛苦吗？
我会说，
不会，一点也不。。
因为，当大家在享福时，
我也乐在其中。。
当然，
一直都很开朗又坚强的我，
感觉能够克服一切的我，
感觉没有悲伤的一面，
在悲观的情况下，
也希望有人关心，
也渴望有人安慰。。
但，
我就是hiao，
很爱面子的小孩。。
当我自己开始变成悲观时，
那时就会想说，
“我很累，
我不行了，
我好想大哭一场”
哭，
当然是忍不住一切时的动作，
并不是解决的方法，
也不想被列为“爱哭鬼”。。
在这半年里的事情所憋的事情，
仅仅地困在心里，
频频地发生，
让我无法把它们给忘记，
让我很难过，
很想放弃一切，
不想再继续下去。。
我常常跟朋友说，
“有什么事情一定要说出来，心里才会安心下来”不过，
现在，
我自己都没有做出来。。
所以必须得在这里释放出来。。
为什么不会跟朋友或家人诉苦？
也许活在现在的残酷又现实世界，
偶尔会让我觉得，
我应该相信自己多过于别人，
偶尔会让我觉得，
我不应该相信“他们”。。
“他们”指的是谁？
我也不知道。。
可能是家人，
也许是朋友，
或许是自己。。
我只知道，
大家快乐，
大家幸福，
大家享福，
我就很好了。。。
当然，
你们一定会，
很讶异，
很惊喜，
很奇怪，
我今天写的博客。。
当然，
你们也会说：
“不要悲观啦。。”
“为什么你会这样写？”
“最近发生什么事情吗？”
我只想说，
最近真的很累，
心里不平衡，
可能压力太大，
只是想释放压力，
不用太担心我。。
悲观完毕！！！
好啦，我现在不想再说什么了。。
方正，心情有好转一些些。。
也不想悲观太久，
因为我很爱面子，很hiao。。。
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！！！^^
最后，请为我说声“HWAITING”吧～～
HWATING!!!
晚安咯，各位。。
P/S：今天我写的，有什么要说的，就直接跟我说，跟我讨论，不要在我不知道的情况下说：“他是怎么了”这些东西，好吗？？
我也不希望你们在我背后讨论这些事情。。谢谢！！
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