17th September 2017

It's been a while

... ...

Can't believe it's 2017

2 years after my last post in Blogger

It's really a long long time

Things happened

Shit happened too

The world changed

People changed too

So do I

想想起来

发现很久没有跟自己聊天了

很久没有好好跟自己

。。。。。。。。。

突然

跟自己说话觉得有点尴尬起来😅

（一瞬间发现Blogger可以放表情了😍😍)

真的发现

大家变了好多

当然

我也不例外

（发现英文我也写过了😅）

可能自己已经没有好好坐下来

自己静一静了

是太忙了嘛？

还是

故意找借口不要面对自己？

突然

觉得很对不起小时候的我

因为

没有好好利用想象力去探险了

小时候

当自己一个人时

会想象一系列的英雄探险故事

面对各种危机

战胜不同的敌人

个个招式都使出来

次次的突破自己的极限

回想起来

真的是很爽的说😋

现在呢

就有事没事玩手游

（手游=手机游戏）

其实

这样一看一想起来

应该说

尽管是小时候的自己

或是现在的自己

其实没有差很多

简单来说

当自己可以一个人时

就会想尽办法

逃离现实生活吧

现实生活

真的

很残酷

很冷血

很讨人厌

压力一大堆

烦东烦西

没人可惜

可能我应付得来

所以外表看不出

只是

一旦有了自己的时间

就会不停地

玩手游

看看戏

听听音乐

唱唱歌

跟外界断联一下

（有“断联”这配词吗？☹️）

发现我

长越大越安静

感觉越像我爸爸

可以一天不用说话

不用跟别人聊天

或许

我还比他更厉害

俗话说得好

青出于蓝而胜于蓝

我觉得

只要可以不出门的一天

我就尽量不要跟任何人

接触与沟通

“请问你是宅男吗？”

如果有人这样问我

我会很骄傲的回答说

“我是啊，而且我是帅气时髦宅男😘”

回到此刻心情

此刻我会回来这里的原因是

很多事情

很多心里话

很多愤怒的东西

很多想抱怨的人事物

我都藏在心里很久了

一段时间真的会喘不过气来

实在是辛苦😔

不是我没有朋友

不是我没有家人

也不是我不相信任何人

只是

我不善于表达内心的自己吧

此刻发现

很多眼睛在看着我

也许这样

我得更小心说话

更小心的看人

“人应该要活出精彩，不要管他人的bla bla bla。。”

这些废话连篇的，

不能用在此刻的我

原因一？

亲人

原因二？

朋友

原因三？

国家

“这些原因，重要吗？”

重要啊

如果不重要，那我列出来干嘛呢？

好啦

突然忘记要写什么了

先告一段落

拜

勇辉至上

2015 第一个post

大家好啊！！！

超级久的说~

很久没有在这里写了。

就趁这个时间写一写吧~~

不知不觉已经来到2015 的第二个月了~

离最后一个文章多久了我也不知道~

很多时候，

明明就很想写东西，

每次都是懒得要命~

来回顾回顾一下，

这个永辉过了怎样的日子啦~

进了大学以后，

感觉时间过得好快好快。

大家纷纷都老了很多。

我呢？

也是有长大了一点点。

因为每天都发生很多事情，

也学习了很多人生道理。

进入大学后，

认识了很多朋友，

有些过后变很熟，

有些过后变陌生。

吵架打闹，

读书赶功课，

跳舞唱歌，

喝茶看电影，

见老师见学长学弟妹，

睡觉煮饭，

做工办活动，

跑步游泳，

打保龄球打羽球，

去gym玩神魔，

拍照自拍，

旅行去海边。

还有很多很多。

你说说看，

是不是很充实的大学生活呀~

眼睛闭一下开一下，

已经进入最后一个学期了。

说实话，感觉这大学时期很像miss到很多东西，

感觉错过了什么似的。

想呀想呀，

还是想不通~

不过开心还是最重要。

可是想到最后一个学期就很伤心很沮丧。

想到大家在大学的最后一天，

我都会流眼泪。

真的很不舍那些帮我的~

因为我知道，

大学毕业后，

大家就会个忙个的~

也许再也不会再见了~

同时，

也发现了，

我也忽略了一些事。

很想弥补的，

不过都不知如何是好。

现在下着雨，

让我很疲倦，

很忧郁，

现在就想立刻掏空脑袋，

轻松一下身心。

就这样，

二月一日的开始，

加油！！

OMG day

Today is really an OMG day

Want to deny

But have to accept

The Fact that

"there're people who likes you and people who don't likes you"

Saddest thing about the fact was

You knew it at the same time

Which makes me so miserable now

What should I do?

Should I reveal it?

I don't like it

But it just so depressing to me

Happy Friendship Day!!

Happy Belated Friendship Day!!
It's belated because in this year,
Friendship Day is held on 4th August 2013.
And the day I'm writing my blog now,
Is 5th August 2013.

Anyway,
Here's the big deal of the day.
A present for Friendship Day.
What present?

A mash-up song consists of 3 songs.
Count On Me,
Stand By Me
Umbrella.

Not only that, 
I perform with an ukulele.
Thanks to Joshua.

Managed to perform it after 12 days of practise.
Practically less than that,
Because I don't practise it all the time.
It only took me around 15-20 minutes,
To strum and fret the ukulele,
And to sing along.

For me,
Although my vocal still need A LOT of improvements,
But I'm still happy with the result.
It was a BIG achievement in my life.
Play a ukulele and sing along,
It was some part of my dreams somehow.
Wasn't achieving your dream make you happy?
That's what I'm thinking now.
And probably a surprise present for my besties.
Hoping they enjoy it.

Don't bother about the vocal,
Just enjoy the song.
It's quite meaningful to me,
But I don't know how about others.
I just want to say that 
I'm very proud to have these friends,
I'm very happy to have them by my side.

Anyway,
I'm done for today.
Happy Friendship Day!!!

Happy Friendship Day!!!

Happy Belated Friendship Day!!
It's belated because in this year,
Friendship Day is held on 4th August 2013.

And the day I'm writing my blog now,
Is 5th August 2013.

Anyway,

HELLO AUGUST!!

It's been a while since my last post on here.
Totally forgot what I posted in the last post.

However,
I'm back again.

Back to blogging.
But I don't know what to blog.

Let's start with my life throughout this year.

So far, everything runs quite smooth.
Good thing, bad thing.
Good news, bad news.
Good fortune, bad triumph.
Problems there, solutions here.


Quite enjoyed the moment actually
When you try to think back,
It's something that can be an experience,
A memory,
A topic to talk about when you are getting older.

Yes!!
I'm old now.
Emerging adults stage.
Quarter life crisis happening to me.
Start to change yourself to become a better person.

21 years old.
Good memories when my friends celebrated with me.
3 days of celebration party.
Totally crazy.
But yet, I still love them as my besties, not breasts.

Maybe it will be my best memories ever of the year.
Maybe it won't also.
Because it's only August.
4 months left to celebrate 2014.
To say goodbye to 2013.
I'm very sure that I'll have good memories for the next 4 months as well.

Is it long enough for my post today?
I don't think so.
So let me continue.

Throughout my First Year Second Semester of my university life,
Shits happened a lot.
Being sabotaged,
Being annoyed,
Being bad to myself.

However,
I would appreciate that experience.
For being "pretending to be nice and caring",
For being "overly-concerned"
For being "follower"
For being "too attached"

Don't know about it,
But I'll try to ignore that.
Who the fuck to care about that?

Yeah, that fucker somehow is myself.
Not to care, but have to care about it.
Because it was coming out from one of my besties.

But everything's fine for me now.
I'm easy to forgive people.
Because I trust people easily.

Somehow, sometimes I wonder,
Why it is so hard for some people to trust others?
Why you have to close your heart to tightly?
I even asked myself.
I would answer,
"I would not trust people because they are strangers to me"
But is that everyone thinking of?
I don't know.
But WHO CARES?
I won't care except to those who are important to me, like my besties on this Earth.

Anyway,
There're lots of good things too.
Being Wakil Sains Kognitif a.k.a. Students' Representative for Cognitive Science.
Being involved in many activities,
Like drama, choir, dance, performances.
Being an organiser for fund-raising concert, 
Which was quite a successful event for me.
Too much until I can't think of others.
Overall, i think my university life for this semester was fun and colourful
Not many complaints about it.
But at least it wasn't as dull as those nerds right?

=D

what a day to emo

sometimes

i would just shut up

dont wan to care anything else

两个月了

两个月了

新的开始

新的生活

新的朋友

新的屋檐

新的环境

两个月了

新的志向

新的梦想

新的理想

新的想法

新的思考

新的经验

但是

两个月了

就因为很新

旧的渐渐地离开

很多事情

本来应该知道的

往往都是不让晓得

很累很累

很突然

心变得很累

也许

新的生活

更需要更坚强

更冷酷

更不需要陪伴

不需要鼓励

真的很怕

有一天

真的不行时

不晓得

会有谁可以当

一个背后灵

一个肩膀

一个从前面拉

一个从后面推

July, finally you came.. 02/07/2012

This is the first post where I'm blogging using a smartphone... Kinda hard to find an application for this Windows Phone.. But finally found this, but you can't view your own previous posts and even your following friends.. It won't cause any troubles for me because I just want to write a blog here... Anyway, this month would be a tough month for me. A month where I decides my future. Sounds so serious, but it's a funny matter. -THE END-

A Very Frustrating 26th May 2012

To Lim:

Life matter again.

How long will I suffer this thing?

It just so frustrating.

Make me tensed some more.

I can't hold that pressure for too long.

My brain will going to be burst if I keep on thinking of it.

It's about my life.

My future life.

My family's life.

My family's future life.

My lifestyle.

My time.

My everything.

FOR MY WHOLE LIFE.

I have to make the decision as fast as possible.

So I wouldn't spend my time for doing nothing and get nothing.

So this is really pissed me off.

Towards myself.

For being not strict on my choices.

This is really not myself.

I can't blame it too.

Things changes from time to time.

So I have to adapt to the changes.

Until I forgot who am I.

I forgot how strong am I last time.

How brave am I last time.

To fight with my will.

Now,

I am.

Like a blind.

Like a deaf.

Lost myself again.

No will to fight.

No brave to face.

No spirit to fulfil. 

Choices are there.

But I'm no longer can choose one.

Like I used to be.

"Just take one and enjoy the moments"

No longer.

I can stay with the choice I chose longer.

Like I used to be.

"I'll show you that my choice is right"

Now.

I only can say.

"Anything as I can go through"

"You choose it for me."

"I'm flexible"

Well.

It's wasn't "me"

That I like before.

The one stand his points steadily.

The one surprised everyone by his thoughts.

The one that never ever wants to lose.

The one that change things,not the one being changed.

The one that is so naive person.

Now,

I just want to have a rest.

I just want to have a zero thoughts.

I just don't want my brain cells to work.

For some moments.

So I can wake up freshly.

Without thinking anything.

So that I can find myself again.

Or create my new self.

Maybe stronger.

Maybe tougher.

Maybe faster.

I hope things can be done quickly.

So I should rest more.

To gain back all power and will.
To make decision.

Please,

Be good to yourself.

Be yourself.

Love yourself.

Sincerely,

Leo

She's The One For The Moment "520"

To All who wonders and wanders:

On the end of May,

 Newcomers arrived with different expression.

I'm still the one, full with curiosity that kills the cats, 

Looking everything for fun.

Saw everyone, with different hair types.

But I remembered one the most: long with wavy and curly hair.

Didn't saw the face, only the figure line the back.

It was a very very someday of June, (somehow I forgot whether it's June or July)

Things suddenly went very funny,
Everyone is laughing at the name.
"Wong Fei Hong", "Kui Fei Long"

Hei Fei Long Hong etc etc.
But somehow we don't know who she is.
And I'm only remembered that there's a long curly and wavy hair girl.


"Could it be her?"
I asked.


"Yes, it's her, indeed."
He replied.


It was still nothing at that time,
until I saw her again,
where I was always been there,
for 7 years.


Finally, I saw her.
The funny name jokes,
The stories about her,
The long wavy and curly hair girl.
"It's her."


Well, she's just a simple girl,
simple as having a simple life,
simple as on her appearance,
simple as a normal girl that passing by.


But the weird things happened,
I'm still remember her,
I saw something different from her.
She's normal for everyone but it just different for me.
Kept thinking here and there.
But I just ignore it.


Days to days,
Weeks to weeks,
We still the same,
having the same jokes,
having our life fun and chilled.
However,
I felt something different about me towards her.
Definitely, 
She Is Something To Me.


Since that moment,
She gets into my life.
I kept thinking of her，
For no reason.


One day at the end of July,
I've found her through a social networking website.
I can't believe it, but I was so happy.
So, I added her as friend, without thinking any circumstances.
It's not a fault right?
And yes,
She approved me to be her friend.
Making me so happy again.


It was a midnight Saturday,
but she's there.
So I'm making my first step to chat with her.
I admit that I am not a talkative when chatting with unknown people.
So I was so scared and worried,
that our conversation ended fast and with awkward moments.
Yet, our conversation was just good to me,
I'm satisfied with it,
since it lasted longer than I thought.


Again, I'm very happy and shared my "happiness" to my brothers,
"Happiness" where I put a new special person in my heart,
"Happiness" where I appreciated and saved another moments in my memory,
"Happiness" where I was never felt it for a long time since few years back.


Since then, 
I became her friend,
Chatting with her when we're free.
Teaching each other on life,
Getting better with each other.


Everything she done to me,
Everything she said to me,
Every moments we have,
Buried deep within my heart.
Making me "syok" myself, 
whenever,
wherever.
It still fun,
It still warming, 
It still meaningful,
It still exciting.
Indeed,
It's one-sided love.


Well, that's what I want to share today, since it's 520 day.
Happy Day Earth! =D

Life at 12/5/2012

Annyeong Ladies and Gentlemen~

It has been a long time since my previous update.  

I think it's about 2 or 3 posts for 2012.

Kinda lazy, but what can do?

When I want to blog, something is blocking my way.

When I don't want to blog, nothing crossed my mind.

So, forgive me if you cant see any updates from me.

And yeah, I'm TOO full of P & C (Privacy and Confidentiality)

YES,INDEED.  I'M MAXIMISED WITH P & C!

Well, that's pros and cons behind-the-story.

But the cons dominate more.

But I can't do anything.

It became parts of my life already.

Everything, I mean, things that happened in my life.

I'll just stay quiet,.

Not saying out, but swallow and digest it within my heart.

This is what I'm doing for the 20 years.

Sad isn't it?

Nah~~

Sad what?

Everyone is doing the same.

But I admit it that I keep too much for myself.

I don't know why, but... but... but... 

I just don't know why.

Maybe I have psychological disorder.

Yes, maybe I have psychological disorder due to bad memories I guess?

Hmmm~~ I can't even remember of any bad memories.

Too bad I guess until can't remember.

Well, anyway,

I'm sorry if you guys can't know me well.

Because I never know myself well too.

SO it's a very very pathetic me.

I'm just so emo this recently.

Don't know why, but something is there keep on flying here and there.

Makes me so struggle to overcome it in a day.

It's about my life for the next few months, few years or even my whole life.

I really hate it when it comes to decision on my life.

Maybe I'm just too creative till everyone expect to get what they hope from me.

Come on guys, surprise me.

Surprise how special am I.

Surprise how good am I.

Surprise how excellent am I.

Show me the proves.

Do tell me with proof.

Because I don't know how am I went through my life.

I don't think I'm good as you guys see or said.

Maybe I didn't see it by my own.

But I always marked myself as a F grade human.

Not much special about me.

But why people look me as different as what I thought on myself?

Maybe I'm too strict on myself?

Maybe I'm too depressed on myself?

or maybe those compliments are all FAKE?

Well, I can't see myself without proof.

Talking and saying how good am I won't make sense for me to believe it.

Anyway, let's just off grid and sleep.

Shall we?

 Goodnight!

Love you all.

random post

ok

was trying some test there..

and i get some results about myself..

read it..see if it suits me or nt... =D

你是： 平衡的中道

你的分數

解析：別人認為你是一個新鮮的、有活力的、有魅力的、好玩的、講究實際的而永遠有趣的人；一個經常是群眾注意力的焦點，但是你是一個足夠平衡的人，不至於因此而昏了頭。他們也認為你親切、和藹、體貼、能諒解人；一個永遠會使人高興起來並會幫助別人的人。 你的性格，可說是<突進型>的。在人家慢吞吞繼續慢行的狀態之下，你已是三步併成兩步的前進。決斷快到令人稱讚，決定之後也很敏捷的開始行動。是一邊行動一邊想的性格，不是想了後才行動。如果決定了目標，自然就開始動身行動了。  頭腦轉動很決，手法優異，所以任何事都以別人的二、三倍速度來處理。因此看到悠然慢做的人，就會焦躁地性急火氣大。由於太過爭先，容易漏視細小微妙之處，而因貿然斷定以致失敗的似乎也不少。 其迅速的決斷力及行動力，在競爭的社會中也許大有作用。快快抓住機會，競爭勝利地站在首位，將具成為這種優秀戰士的可能性。 此型的人非常熱情，是個向目標專心前進的突飛猛進型。對自己的做法有信心，絕對不會怯懦，盡力奮鬥以達成目標。 你想盡量在受到限制的人生中生存下來，是健康且有精神活力的。具有一旦出生了，就要多看、多知的旺盛的意欲。向上心很強，也有勇氣，討厭維持現狀，追求更刺激的生存，向未知的領域挑戰，也是個多夢的冒險家。 B型白羊座 的人討厭曖昧的狀態，想將全部的東西露在光亮的陽光下來解決。善惡分明，正邪有別，很多是想走向正當路途之富有正義感的人。不會忠實順從他人，對戰時是堂堂正正由正面攻擊，甚至具有雪中送炭的寬大胸襟。 自我主張很強，因為太過追求明確有對什麼事都不客氣地說的癖性，其直言有時如同銳利的小刀，會刺到人心深處。絕對沒有惡意，只是說話老實而已，但這種老實相反的會招來禍患。 可是，其如割竹之般的老實，會令人有如雨後清晨般的爽快之印象。其不會記恨、依戀不捨的直爽氣質，以及明朗的性格，這種魅力無法不吸引住許多人的心。 【對你的忠告】 有太過相信自己的傾向。不只是正面進攻，若有由側面慎重考慮事情的態度，性情會更加深厚。 and lastly, 分析：您的性格類型是「ENFJ」( 教育家 )         溫情，有同情心，反應敏捷，有責任感。非常關注別人的情緒、需要和動機。善於發現他人的潛能，並希望能幫助他們實現。能夠成為個人或群體成長和進步的催化劑。忠誠，對讚美和批評都能做出積極地回應。友善、好 社交。在團體中能很好地幫助他人，並有鼓舞他人的領導能力。 ENFJ型的人熱愛人類，他們認為人的感情是最重要的。而且他們很自然地關心別人，以熱情的態度對待生命，感受與個人相關的所有事物。由於他們很理想化，按照自己的價值觀生活，因此ENFJ型的人對於他們所尊重和敬 佩的人、事業和機構非常忠誠。他們精力充沛、滿腔熱情、富有責任感、勤勤勤懇懇、鍥而不捨。 ENFJ型的人具有自我批評的自然傾向。然而，他們對他人的情感具有責任心，所以ENFJ型的人很少在公共場合批評人。他們 敏銳地意識到什麼是（或不是）合適的行為。他們彬彬有禮、富有魅力、討人喜歡、深諳社會。ENFJ型的人具有平和的性格與忍耐力，他們長於外交，擅長在自己的周圍激發幽默感。他們是天然的領導者，受人歡迎而有魅 力。他們常常得利於自己口頭表達的天份，願意成為出色的傳播工作者。 ENFJ型的人在自已對情況感受的基礎上做決定，而不是基於事實本身。他們對顯而易見的事物之外的可能性，以及這些可能性以怎樣的方式影響他人 感興趣。 ENFJ型的人天生具有條理性，他們喜歡一種有安排的世界，並且希望別人也是如此。即使其他人正在做決定，他們還是喜歡把問題解決了。 ENFJ型的人富有同情心和理解力，願意培養和支持他人。他們能很好地 理解別人，有責任感和關心他人。由於他們是理想主義者，因此他們通常能看到別人身上的優點。 您適合的領域有：培訓、諮詢、教育、新聞傳播、公共關係、文化藝術 您適合的職業有： 人力資源培訓主任 銷售經理 小企業經理 程序設計員 生態旅遊業專家 廣告客戶經理 公關專業人士 協調人 交流總裁 作家／記者 非營利機構總裁 雜誌編輯 電視製片人 市場專員 社會工作者 人力資源管理 職業指導顧問 心理咨詢工作者 大學教師（人文學科類） 教育學、心理學研究人員 撰稿人 節目主持人（新聞、採訪類） 公共關係專家 社會活動家 文藝工作者 平面設計師 畫家 音樂家 accurate or nt?? i'm not sure too...XD

10-12-2011

YEAH!!!!

IT'S 10TH DECEMBER!!!

3 more days...

before I free again...

from the exam...

kinda happy....

kinda sad...

because there is only one 2011...

anyway, Love Life!!

27.11.11

Kind of slow productive day today

it's way way to slow production

Chemistry Paper 1 is on Wednesday

But I'm still there

Looking for nothing

Anyway

I'm craving for some books today

But I don't know as if I can finish them

Because I'm not a book-fetish

Not a good reader too

But yeah

Will try to have one VERY THICK BOOK

and have some read on it

But now

READ BIOLOGY AND CHEMISTRY FIRST

13 Dec~~ Pending

lalalalala~~

I'm waiting for the day~~~

Can fast fast come??

LOL and lol to myself

Sorry~~

too much emo posts liao~~

Sorry~~

too much stress liao~~

Sorry~~

too much problems liao~~

Sorry~~

too much stupid days liao~~

Sorry~~

cant say too much liao~~

Sorry~~

too much Sorry liao~~

SORRY~~

Speechless Day

speechless...

let's be speechless...

then be an invisible human...

standing there without any bright colour...

only with black and white...

maybe grey as well...

mute all the sound and voice...

stop all the movement and vibration..

no one can see...

no one can hear...

Question of my life~

I have a lot of questions about life...

But no one gives me the answers...

I'm curious with this question this recently...(part of my questions)

What is the feeling of being treated as the most important Friend after Family and Lover?

Well, I don't think I'm a very important to my Friends,even my Besties and "Another Siblings"...

I'm not the 1st Friend to think of...

I'm not the 1st Friend to chat with...

I'm not the 1st Friend to seek help...

I'm not the 1st Friend to play with...

Anyway, I'm just Nobody to anyone...

So, I don't know what is That Feeling...

It was an very very Awkward moment...

When you treat them as the Most Important Friends...

But they treat you Differently...

Maybe they treat you in the same way...

But you don't know about it..

Because they don't tell you about it...

And they thought you know about it...

Wasn't it?

Maybe I'm born to be Nobody..

Maybe I should not put too much effort on it..

Maybe I'm Masked Rider Decade, always be Rider that passing by each World..

Butthurt and Jelly on those people...

Being the Most Important Friends to some people..

But yeah, one word "Useless" for butthurt and jelly..

Because everyone is different...

Because you're not him/her...

Because your name is not the same with him/her...

Because everyone has different stories...

But I'm just curious on it....

Hoping someone can answer me in his/her point of view...

10/11/2011 Thursday

so sad today...

going to leave the school...

although sometimes hate it a lot...

but I always don't give a fuck on it...

I only see the bright side of it...


Going to miss everything...

Friends, Best friends, Teachers...

Chairs, Desks....

Stupid timetable, organisation charts...

but yeah, everything..

I MEAN EVERYTHING...

will miss it badly for this few days...